“There were phrases of Beethoven’s 9th symphony that still made Coe cry. He always thought it had to do with the circumstances of the composition itself. He imagined Beethoven, deaf and soul-sick, his heart broken, scribbling furiously while Death stood in the doorway, clipping his nails. Still, Coe thought, it might have been living in the country that was making him cry; it was killing him with its silence and loneliness, making everything ordinary too beautiful to bear.”—The Man with the Miniature Orchestra (via danielpdykes)
Y - If I like my town and why. Sometimes. Scenic place with mostly nondescript people. Nothing happens here.
X - If I’ve done something I regret very much. God, this is difficult… I hate being an unforgiving person but whenever I think of things I regret, the only thing I can think about is this girl I met last September. The funny thing is that I never approached her first—she did. I can’t blame anyone but myself for being so patient and deluded throughout my friendship with her. I mean, the whole house couldn’t freaking deal with her. At least, willingly. It was always easy to be tolerant, and look the other way because of her personal problems that she imposed on me (and always reminded me) but I suppose I should at least vent here, where I can always look back since I don’t keep a journal/diary. What I regret: Allowing myself to suffer through a supposed best “friend’s” physical and emotional abuse—for letting her constantly undermine and question what I said and did, for disrespecting my opinions and more importantly, my identity. For disregarding my friendships with others, manipulating me, and making me feel incredibly terrible if I was never completely on her “side.” And most of all, I regret that I didn’t stand up for myself throughout this whole thing and for having been such a good, supporting friend to her. She didn’t deserve me, at all. And to whoever is reading this, please know that there is a way to get your opinion across without being such a hurtful, condescending, narrow-minded bitch.
A - If I’m in love. B - Who the last person I talked to on the phone was. C - How long it’s been since I’ve kissed someone D - If I have a preference for boys or girls. E - How many holes I have in my ears. F - Give me any options, like ‘hot or cold?’ G - The last person I said ‘I love you’ to. H - The last person I hugged. I - The last time I felt jealous, and why. J - How old I am. K- What my full name is. L - If I have siblings. M - If I forgive betrayal. N - If you want to know how I treat my friends. O - If I like my school. P - What kind of music I like. Q - What the last party I went to was, and when the next will be. R - For me to tell 10 of my curiosities. S - 2 habits. T- 5 things I love unconditionally. U - How many texts I send daily. V - 3 big dreams. W - An idol. X - If I’ve done something I regret very much. Y - If I like my town and why. Z - Ask any question you want.